Birthday Girls

Thirteen years ago today, on the first snowfall of the year, two precious souls made their brief appearance on this earth. Two little girls, my only daughters, filled my arms for but a moment on that snowy November afternoon. Sometimes I think about what it might be like if they were here. I would have three teenagers filling our little house. Oh my! There would be a plethora of accessories the likes of which I have never known as the mama of boys. We would definitely not survive with only one bathroom as we do now!

There would be dances and dresses, giggling and soul-searching heart-to-hearts. As the mother of teenagers, I know it wouldn't always be smooth-sailing, and we would have so much to pray for protection from in this world of ours. But, on certain days, I notice what's missing in this land of boy world in which I live, this land that I dearly love.

I may look like a boy mama through and through. I may not know how to do little-girl hair. I may shout at football games and know whether a player sliding into home is safe or out during the baseball game. I may even express strong opinions about it if my son is playing. I may know how to get grass stains out of a white uniform way better than I could fasten a hair pretty or dress a Barbie. My purse may be filled with golf balls, tees, hot wheels cars and transformers. You may not see any evidence when you look at me, but I am still the mother of daughters. They just weren't here long enough for me to learn how to do all of those girly things.

But...

They are waiting for me. And, we will have all of eternity for hair pretties and tea parties...soul-searching heart-to-hearts and deep belly giggles. We will do it all in a place where daddy will not have to worry about protecting his baby girls from harm, and I won't have to stay awake at night praying that they will always walk with the Lord. They have walked with the Lord from the first moment of their lives. The have literally walked with Him on streets of gold. They walk with Him, even now...as I wait and dream my dreams of their long, brown wavy hair filled with pink ribbons. (I'm sure ribbons stay perfectly in heaven, and perhaps I will even have the expertise to fasten them just right...or maybe someone with the gift of "hair pretties" can help us out! Even better, hopefully we will have no need of hair pretties in heaven! =)

I recorded a little song (not sure the title or author of this song...just one that I've heard for years, and speaks of the longing for heaven - the longing to sit before His throne). I wanted to share it on Faith's and Grace's birthday, but the sound quality is, of course, below par (since it's just on my little digital camera). Someday, we will get the recording studio built and I will be able to share better quality recordings, but for now...this was on my heart. It isn't meant to show any singing expertise (obviously)...just a mama singing to her baby girls and a daughter singing to her Father.



I miss you, sweet girls. I love you and wish you a happy, happy heavenly birthday.

Great Expectations

I've been thinking a lot lately about marriage, expectations, and choices. In my last post, I shared a great message from Pastor James about what God wants marriage to look like, what it means to truly love each other, and the gift of submission. If you haven't listened to it, I highly recommend it. It is a little long, and I know time is often limited for many busy wives and moms...but, it's worth a listen if you have time.

Anyway, I've been thinking about marriage and a couple deceptions that many often fall for. The first is expectations. That is where the trouble often begins...when we have expectations for ourselves and our spouse. We think they should be a certain way. We would like a certain reaction...we respond based on our expectations. We expect our loved one to speak the same love language as we do. Tim and I have learned that we get into trouble any time we (namely ME) place unnecessary expectations on one another. For instance, romantic marriage retreats that are scheduled with a program or certain movies about relationships, love stories, etc. often set us up to become frustrated with one another. It is better to focus on what we love about each other, spending time together doing things we enjoy. This may not be the case for everyone, but it's definitely how we roll. The other types of activities lead us right into the "expectation trap".

The other thing that I wish some newly married or "thinking-about-getting-married" couples would know: love is a choice. You will not always feel that lovey-dovey happy feeling. Life gets hard and messy. You have to pay the bills, you get the flu, you have to go to work, you have to discipline the kids, there are bumps in the road and detours, struggles, emotions. You will let each other down, you will not always measure up, you will lose your temper, you will get old, you will snap at each other, you will have bad days. Wives, your husbands may be difficult to respect some days. Respect him anyway. Husbands, your wives may be hard to love some days. Love her anyway. Love is a choice...not a feeling.

And know this...

Some days, you will dance.
Some days, you will laugh.
Some days, joy will fill you beyond description.
Some days, you will not want to be anywhere except in his arms.
Some days, you will be a team.
Some days, you will be the very best you because of your other half.
Some days, you will know His purpose brought you together.

And, one day...if you stick it out through the good and the bad...you will sit together on your back porch with nothing between you but a couple of glasses of lemonade and the memories you've shared. You will know on that day, that it was worth it...every single step of the journey.

Below is a list of suggestions formerly published in The Women's Edge Newsletter in an article written to encourage "frazzled moms". I thought it fit well here, too!
1. So many of our struggles seem from the attitudes we choose. On those extra difficult days we have a choice about our reactions and our attitudes. One of the most powerful "attitude adjusters": is simply GRATEFULNESS. Nothing changes an attitude from negative to positive faster than giving thanks for what we have been given. If you're looking around right now and all you can see is a messy house and screaming children, we can start with that. Begin by giving thanks that you have a house to call home (and to get messy). As for the screaming kids, praise God for their healthy lungs. Obviously, they are breathing well to be able to bellow life that. If your husband has fallen asleep on the couch after a long day at work, be thankful that he's sleeping on your couch (as opposed to someone else's)!

2. EXPECTATIONS... If I had a nickel for all of the problems that stem from that one simple word, I would be one rich Mommy! Expectations lead to disappointment and disillusionment. Too often, we moms put unattainable expectations on everyone around us: our husbands, our children, our friends, and most of all ourselves. What a great gift it would be to our loved ones if we could simply accept and love people (including ourselves) just the way they are. After all, isn't that what Jesus did for us? What if we laid down our expectations, our schedules, and our demands for a little while and just asked God to help us see these precious children and husbands the way that He sees them? What if we could just laugh and enjoy the great gift of family , even when that family is not meeting our expectations? What if even our flaws were endearing to one another? Or, better yet, what if we chose not to see each other's flaws at all? What if whenever we were wronged by another family member , that wrong or sin was covered completely in grace... every debt paid, every sin forgiven, erased and removed as far as the east is from the west?

3. What motivates us to forgive when we've been wronged, to give when there's nothing left to give, to stay when we want to leave, to keep going when we want to quit? What covers a multitude of sins! What never fails, always hopes, trusts, endures, protects, keeps no record of wrongs, is not selfish or easily angered? LOVE. This is the kind of love described in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8. This love is the love that Jesus has for us and it is the love that He can put in us to give, through the power of His Holy Spirit. If we ask, He will equip us to love our families this way. WE must also remember that this love definitely is a choice. Often as mothers we feel overwhelmed and inadequate about the task of training our children and caring for our homes and family. We will never fail when we choose love.

4.We've heard a lot about what a mom is supposed to give, and how God is gracious to equip moms to fulfill their role. One of the ways He equips us is through the ENCOURAGEMENT we can receive and give to one another in our CHRISTIAN FRIENDSHIPS. Call a girlfriend to talk, laugh, vent, cry, sort your thoughts-whatever you need. On those "frazzled" days, it can work wonders to seek the love, support and advice of another godly Christian mom. Maybe it can even help to feel like you are not alone. Someone understands and has been there too. It is beautiful thing to be able to share your burdens with one another in Christian love, and even better, we can pray with and for one another. We all know that a cord of three strands is not quickly broken. (Ecclesiastes 4:9-12)

5. Most importantly, we must remember to fill Mommy's gas tank. If we don't stop and take time to meet some of our own needs, soon we will have nothing left to give our families. It's important to schedule some quiet time to do Bible devotions, call a friend, relax, exercise, whatever refuels and refreshes our hearts, souls, minds, and bodies so that we can live to negotiate bedtime, referee a wrestling match, drive carpool,and change a diaper another day!

Take a second look at your demanding family and take a few minutes to set down and cradle your children in your arms. Everything else will wait. They are God's gift to you.

Praying that you will be blessed and encouraged as you keep on keepin' on...

Reminder: The next Walking With You will be this Thursday, November 5th. We will be sharing ways (special moments...ways our lives have changed) that we are thankful for the gift our babies who now live in heaven.

Marriage Encouragement ~ One of My Favorite Messages

In my last post, I gushed a little about my love for our beautiful church family. I wanted to share one of my favorite messages delivered by Pastor James Erven, on the subject of marriage. I found it full of biblical wisdom and encouragement for both husbands and wives. And, who doesn't need a little encouragement in their marriage? I hope it blesses you as much as it blessed me. Please forgive the picture of my husband and I at the beginning. After several failed attempts and several frustrating hours over the past couple days, I couldn't load the file without a photo. Blogger wouldn't allow me, with all my techno-bloggy lack of skills, to load it as an audio file...the pic makes it think it's a video. Whatever. (As a side note, I do love that picture of the two of us. It says so much about our marriage, and our journey. I like to think the footprints behind us in the snow are representative of when God carried us.)

Enjoy!

My Church Family

I love my church family. There is so much that happens behind the scenes, both at church and Sufficient Grace, that I could never adequately share how grateful I am for the people I am blessed to worship with each week. But, I wanted to try...just a little...to say how much their love, support, prayers, friendship, and encouragement mean to me.

Our dear Pastor is truly a brother in the Lord, who encourages us both in friendship and through His Holy Spirit-inspired teaching. He will probably be embarrassed by this praise, but we appreciate him and love him very much. Whether giving godly counsel in the area of ministry-related concerns, or playing the drums in our little praise band during children's worship on Sunday morning, teaching the scriptures, or sharing a hearty laugh, sitting beside my dying mother's bed, or giving the eulogy at her funeral. Even if he doesn't love my peanut butter pie...he is one of my favorite people, and a great blessing to our family and our church.

Truly, we are surrounded by people who love Jesus and wish to share that love with others. Whenever there is a need, God uses the willing hearts of His people to fill it immediately. Our church family has given faithfully...through their prayers, love, and support of all kinds. Those with a gift of sewing (along with willing hearts who may be lacking in the gift, but want to help...like ahem...myself!) meet to sew and stuff the Comfort Bears given by Sufficient Grace to grieving mothers. Many individuals and Harvest Fellowship, as a whole, support our efforts financially. We have use of the church copy machine, the computer, the building. People are always ready to come alongside another in need, reaching out in Christian love. I have seen that displayed over and over. Am I trying to hold our church up as some great thing of perfection? Absolutely not. We have our flaws (what church full of sinners doesn't?). But, I am continually in awe of the beauty of what God can do with a bunch of forgiven sinners with willing hearts. Just another example of His amazing grace.

So...thank you, Pastor James...and Harvest Fellowship...we love you dearly...

Grace for the Moment

You've probably heard the saying, "Sometimes He calms the storm, sometimes He quiets the child" (or something like that). That's what I would like to discuss on this Tuesdays Together...God's goodness in the giving and the taking away, in the storms and in the calm. Many people praise God when they get the physical miracle, the tangible healing we can see with our eyes. But, God is still good when we don't get the answer we hoped for.

It's probably no surprise that God's grace is one of my favorite things. His grace and mercy are what whooed me to Him in the beginning. I was a sinner desperate for forgiveness, in need of a Savior...one who would love me always and never leave. It wasn't until after I walked with Him a little while that He began to teach me about the sufficiency of His amazing grace. It was through my own desperate need, through my grief and weakness that I learned that His grace was all I needed.

And lest I should be exalted above measure by the abundance of revelations, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I be exalted above measure. Concerning this thing, I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." ~ 2 Corinthians 12:7-9

I pleaded over and over again for the lives of my Faith and Grace, for the life of my Thomas, for the life of my sweet mother. And, he answered, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." I learned that healing comes in various forms. Sometimes the Lord touches directly, healing immediately in a way our eyes can see. Sometimes He heals through medicine or doctors. And sometimes, He heals both body and soul by taking His child home to heaven. All are healing, all are miracles, all are worthy reasons to give Him praise.

Do not think it is less of a miracle that He takes your loved one to heaven. Do not consider it an unanswered prayer. For although your pain and loss are great, your loved one's homecoming is celebrated and his healing is complete. Do you know that: Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints (Ps. 116:15)?

The other thing about His grace is that it often comes in the moment it is needed and not a second before. We have sufficient grace for the day...for the moment. He doesn't tell us about tomorrow. In fact, we are admonished not to "worry about tomorrow". He gives us grace that is sufficient to carry us through right now. It is always there...and it is always enough. That is what He promises...not a perfect life of ease. But a life filled with the perfect amount of grace.

I love the Lord, because He has heard
My voice and my supplications.
Because He has inclined His ear to me,
Therefore I will call upon Him as long as I live.

The pains of death surrounded me,
And the pangs of Sheol laid hold of me;
I found trouble and sorrow.
Then I called upon the name of the Lord:
"O Lord, I implore You, deliver my soul!"

Gracious is the Lord, and righteous;
Yes, our God is merciful.
The Lord preserves the simple;
I was brought low, and He saved me.
Return to your rest, O my soul,
For the Lord has dealt bountifully with you.

For You have delivered my soul from death,
My eyes from tears,
And my feet from falling.
I will walk before the Lord
In the land of the living.
~ Psalm 116: 1-9

Upon Every Remembrance of You...

I thank my God upon every remembrance of you...
~ Philippians 1:3

Thank you to those of you who allowed us the privilege of remembering your precious babies with you...of praying for each of you on October 15th. I was overwhelmed as I read each name, praying tearful prayers for each of you. And, I was filled with gratefulness for the lives of my precious babies who dance in heaven's glory...not only mine, but yours as well. Faith, Grace, and Thomas changed my life. Just as I'm sure knowing your little ones, who passed briefly through on their way to eternity have profoundly changed you. Life is more precious. Joy is sweeter. Sorrow is less of an unknown. Those of us who have walked there, finding comfort in the arms of the Lord, know with assurance that although we will face sorrow in this life, we will never walk alone. Our capacity to love and embrace has grown. Our ability to realize what's really important, to feel compassion, to resist wasting time on the trivial things of this life. There is an understanding...a desire to live and dance...even as we dream, long for, and miss those who have gone before us. There is a need to reach out to others, offering the comfort we have received. There is a bond between the mothers that have walked this path. And, it is a precious gift, even in the valley. I am grateful for all that the lives of our babies have taught us, and ways they have blessed our lives.

On October 14th, I was invited to speak at the Holgate United Methodist Church Women's Group. I had such a delightful time with these lovely ladies. I admit, that I (and my computer) have been "barely hanging on". My computer is still very much in that state. Thankfully, we will be ordering a new ministry computer soon. But, last Wednesday night, I was very much refreshed, renewed, and encouraged as I shared with these women about our journey, the amazing grace of our great God, and Sufficient Grace Ministries. It is always good to look back and remember what the Lord has done...to marvel at all He's brought us through...to give thanks for His faithfulness, and rest in Him, knowing He is able to provide the sufficient grace we need for each moment.

We gathered together in the church basement, decorated with lovely pumpkins, candlelight, and an array of autumn colored table settings. Becki and I were served a delicious pumpkin dessert with some cold apple cider. We laughed and cried...and shared our stories. We attempted to video the evening, but it was a slight debacle as are most of our technological attempts! We are not sure if we taped any of it, as the battery died 10 minutes into my hour long speech. We are grateful to our generous friends who allowed us to borrow the camera at the last minute, and hopeful to share what we did get, soon...if it turns out. We will try again, if not!

I met a couple families who have received Dreams of You Memory materials from Sufficient Grace. And, I was touched and humbled beyond words by the beautiful gift and note given to me by one of the mothers. It is pictured in front of the candles in the above photo.

This journey that we are on is so not about us. I am just a little girl...but I have a big God. His grace astounds me...His limitless grace that I do not deserve. I shared a couple days ago, that I didn't feel very "plugged in"...that I was just kind of being swept along by the demands of this life. But, that night...the warmth of the welcome in the room and the pouring out of His grace and the presence of His Holy Spirit, just lifted me up. I felt so blessed and encouraged, as often happens when I am invited to share. At times, I enter weary and bogged down (although no one would know that). When I leave, I feel refreshed and lifted. I wonder if these women have any idea how they have blessed me. Sometimes, I admit to being swept into the doing...the busyness. It is good to stop and remember...to read each name, thanking God for each life, to look into the face of a mother's fresh grief...to remember why we do what we do.

As a side note, just wanted to mention that Kristie is having a bible study on her blog, using the book Threads of Hope, Pieces of Joy. I have been wanting to review this study for awhile, to see if it is worth recommending to other grieving moms. So, I may be taking part, as I am able. If you would like to join in, you can visit Kristie's site for more information.

Please continue to bare with us if you have placed an order recently or are awaiting a response to an email. My computer is still having some trouble and I am very limited on time. I haven't been able to visit my blog friends as I would like, but I am thinking of all of you...and "thanking God upon every remembrance of you".

We Remember

In our hearts we know that we will meet again,
In a place where moments last forever,
And good-byes are never said...
There are no tears in heaven,
Joy and laughter never end...
And we pass the time as we wait with all our dreams of you...
Copyright 2009 Dreams of You Memory Book, by Kelly Gerken


Faith Elizabeth Gerken
Grace Katherine Gerken
Children of Tim and Kelly Gerken
Born still and into the arms of Jesus ~ November 3, 1996

Thomas Patrick Gerken
Son of Tim and Kelly Gerken
Born: July 14, 1998
With us for six amazing hours until Jesus carried Him home...

Kelly Michelle Sponsler
Child of Tracy and Ned Sponsler
Born still and into the arms of Jesus ~ March 12, 2003

Meredith Helen Boyette
(Stan & Sarita)
10/03/74 - 10/06/74

Sarita's sister
Janet Susan Barton
Stillborn 10/07/41

Nephew
Joshua Gregory Myers
(John & Christina)
2/10/90 - 2/11/90

Cousin
Cason Ray Adams

(Waylon & Leigh Ann)
June -August, 2001
6 weeks old
Please, Lord, after I get to Heaven and face Your wonderful Presence, please bring these babies for me to hold.

Cooper, Lee, Seth and Baby Boy Williams
Parents and Sister: Erica, Adam and Larah Williams
"Love Begins Before A Baby Is Born...And Lives Forever"

Calvin Phoenix
Parents Name: Louie and Crystal
Birth Date: March 5, 2009
Entered Heaven: March 5, 2009
Message/Verse: "I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the Lord. For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord" (1 Samuel 1:27-28).

Macsen Danforth Gebhardt
Megan and Michael Gebhardt
December 15th, 2009
Hebrews 12:1 I press on toward the goal, knowing God is with me,
and that you my sweet boy are watching! I love you forever!


Alanna Faith D'Addazio
Daughter of Aurelio & Ramona, sister to Annika, Andrea, Emma, Ava & Kelty
Born July 21, 2009, with us for 10 1/2 precious hours before she was born again into Jesus' arms.

Chaya Eliana
11/06/08, stillborn at 6 1/2 months gestation

Zachary Joseph
04/08, early miscarriage

Olivia Rose
02/07, early miscarriage
Parents (of the above three): Shannon White and Mike Rea

Connor Thomas
03/05, early miscarriage
Parents: Shannon White and T.H. O'Rourke

Patrick Quinn
06/98, early miscarriage
Parents: Shannon White and Doug Dills

Sam (Samuel)
Parents Name: Danielle & Jeff Holsapple
Birth Date: 3/4/08
Entered Heaven: 3/4/08
We named our son Sam and he was born on 3/4. I looked up the chapter 3, verse 4 in 1 Samuel and it has been an amazing comfort to me.
4 Then the LORD called Samuel.
Samuel answered, "Here I am."
I just imagine our Father calling to our son and welcoming him with open arms....and I imagine it was peaceful and wonderous!!!

Jordan Leigh
December 19, 2002
Carleigh McKenna
Parents Name: Anthony & Holly Haas
Birth Date: March 28, 2009
Entered Heaven: March 28, 2009
She was born silent to this world but her little life spoke volumes.

Faith Evangeline
Parents Name: Mike & Karen
Birth Date: 10/28/08
Entered Heaven: 10/28/08
Safe in the arms of Jesus,
Safe on His gentle breast;
There by His love o’ershaded,
Sweetly my soul shall rest.

Cicely Grace Dortenzo
Parents:Katy and Josh Dortenzo
Birth Date: 3/13/03
Entered Heaven: 3/13/03
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.

Tatum Cate
Parents Name: Jarod and Paige Thomas
Birth Date:5/15/08
Entered Heaven: same
"who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God." 2 Corinthians 1:4


Vayden James
Parents Name: Van & Stephanie Stewart
Birth Date: 05/23/2009 @ midnight
Entered Heaven: 05/23/2009 @ 3:45am
He touched the hearts and lives of many, he is my very own angel. He is, my son.


Isaiah Christopher Ross
Parents Name: Christopher & Jennifer Ross
Birth Date: August 3, 2008
Entered Heaven: August 3, 2008
Our love for you is immeasurable. You have been the greatest loss of our lives. Until we meet again...
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you , plans to give
you hope and a future."


Kasey
Parents Name: Kevin and Nicolle
Birth Date: 11.16.08
Entered Heaven: 12.09.08
I love you to the moon and back

Gage Warren Pruitt
Parents Name: Charles and Mary Pruitt
Birthdate: October 13, 2008
Entered Heaven: July 7, 2009
We miss you beanbob. I love you through and through.

Leila Mae Wasouf
Parents: Yasar and Emily Wasouf
5/21/2009 10:54pm
5/21/2009 somewhere around 10pm
My beautiful girl, I hope you're having a wonderful time in heaven. I'm sure you're charming the pants off of everyone. My empty arms hurt, and I can't wait for the day when I get to hold you in them again. I love you, habibi. See you soon!

Grady Thomas
Parents Name: Gibson and Tonya
Birth Date: November 12, 2008
Entered Heaven: November 11, 2008
Born into heaven. Living in our hearts.


Wyatt Nathaniel Finchum
Parents Name: Joseph and Danielle Finchum
Birth Date: 6/1/2009 10:03 am
Entered Heaven: 6/1/2009 10:05 am
I'm honored to be your mother. To carry you, nurture you, to give you life, and to give you peacefully back into the arms of Jesus. I love you my sweet son. The world is a better place for being graced with your presence. I'll hold you again soon and this time,... I'll never let you go.

Peyton Elizabeth Binder
Kristin & Andrew Binder
Birth Date 9/4/08
Entered Heaven: 10/2/08
At less than six pounds Peyton fought with the heart of a prize fighter. We miss you, our sweet baby girl. You are forever in our hearts.


Baby Boy - 12 weeks
Paul & Caroline Croley
Entered Heaven: 2/10/06

Baby - 8 wksPaul & Caroline Croley
Entered Heaven: 12/01/07
We never got to hold you or see you but we love you & can't wait for the day we get to see you both.

Levi Craig Smith
Parents: Josh and Amy Smith
Birth Date: 4/30/2009
Entered Heaven: 4/30/2009
"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." Psalm 147:3

Baby Boy- 18 weeks
Parents- Robb and Heather Hamm
Birth Date - 9/4/09
Entered Heaven -9/4/09


Ethan McKinley
Parents Name: Brian and Cecilia Long
Birth Date: April 28, 2009
Entered Heaven: April 28, 2009
In our arms for a moment, but in our hearts always.
John 16:33 "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

Eva Genelle Clearfield
Parents' names: Daniel and Jessica
Birth Date: June 8, 2009
Entered Heaven: September 19, 2009
Psalm 139:16 "....All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
Our sweet Eva fought so hard to stay with her family in spite of her partial trisomy 18 and a heart defect. She held on as long as she could and gave her family, including big sister Hannah, a lifetime of memories. Thank you for staying with us, if only for a while. All our love, until we meet again.


Duncan Thomas
Parents Name: Jim & Monica Gregory
Birth Date: May 19, 2009
Entered Heaven: May 19, 2009
We choose to rejoice in the brevity of your life, sweet boy.

Hudson Greer
Parents Name: John & Kimberly Henninger
Birth Date: January 16, 2009
Entered Heaven: January 16, 2009
For all the precious children whose footprints are forever ingrained in our hearts we still dream our dreams of you until we meet again. (Dreams Of You Memory Book)

Samuel Micah, Josiah Kent, Anna Gabrielle
Parents Name: Kyle and Lynnette Kraft
Birth Date: Samuel-7/1/92, Josiah-1/15/95, Anna-7/25/98
Entered Heaven: Samuel-7/13/92, Josiah-1/20/95, Anna-11/19/04
Samuel, Josiah and Anna... I am at peace knowing that your lives were for a divine purpose. While I mourned my great losses so deeply, God has made me to dance again. Who would have thought that 13 days, 5 days and 6 years could make such a difference? They did. You did. Each of your lives was special, and purposeful and each of you is loved and missed and longed for. I can't wait until the day we all live together for eternity! We won't just see each other again... we'll LIVE together again... eternal hugs, kisses, laughter, and praising our Father who has given us that precious gift. Until then... my heart will go on singing. Until then... with joy I'll carry on...Until the day my eyes behold the city... Until the day God calls me home.


Morgan Alyssa
Parent's name: April Yodock
Birth date and angel date: September 8th, 2008
http//www.mysecondpregnancypw.blogspot.com

Grace Ola O'Brien Pang
Chelsea and Aaron Pang
9/17/09
"Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you.
Before you were born, I set you apart."
Jeremiah 1:5

Andrew John
Parents Name: Steve & Shelly
Birth Date: May 14, 2009
Entered Heaven: May 14, 2009
Andrew, we miss you and love you so much. We will see you again very soon.

McKynzie Nicole and McKayla Latrice
Parents Names: Natosha and Joseph Porter
Birth Date: 8/28/09
Entered Heaven: same day :(
Mommy's baby girls, We'll love you forever. Your life was a blessing, your memory a Treasure, You are loved beyond words and missed beyond measure!!!

Bayli Lucille Lowmaster
Parents Name: Tiger & Kelci Lowmaster
Birth Date: 4/28/09
Entered Heaven: 4/28/09
There is a fairly long poem that they read at the memorial that we attended called "Baby Tears" by Conni Johnson. I won't list it hear, but it spoke volumes to the emotions that I felt and still feel.

Isabella Denise
Parents Name Jay and Jennifer
Birth Date Aug 21,2008
Entered Heaven: May 19th, 2009
~Beautiful memories,
silently kept
of a baby we loved
and will never forget..

Elizabeth, and Samantha Grace
Parent's Name: Jack and Kristie
Birthdate: May 2004, Sept. 5, 2008

Eliana Grace
Parents Names: Jess and Mark
Birth Date: May 9, 2009
Entered Heaven: May 7, 2009
We so miss you and long for you in our arms, but are so grateful for the love of the One who holds you in His. You are deeply and tenderly loved, and forever missed. Until we meet again!
Isaiah 43: 1-2
"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine! When you pass through the waters, I will be with you...when you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched."

Andrew Ryan
Parents Name: Kevin & Sarah Eddins
Birth Date: 8/7/09
Entered Heaven: 8/7/09
Mommy and Daddy are so proud of you! We miss you so much but look forward to the day when we will be reunited in heaven!
"My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will never be shaken." Psalm 62:1-2

Tucker James Carr
Parents Name:Lizy Fitzthum& Trevor Carr
Birth Date: 8/20/2009
Entered Heaven:8/16/2009
Even the smallest things will always be remembered.

Baby Jay
Parents Names: Misty and Jay Orellana
Birth Date: May 15th, 2008
Entered Heaven: May 15th, 2008
we love and miss you with every breath we take. I can not wait to see you and hold you again my beautiful angel.

Harry Line born full term on 24.4.08
Parents name Jason and Louisa Line from Melbourne, Australia
Harry entered Heaven on the 24th of April.
"An angel wrote in the book of life "Harry's" date of birth, she closed the book and said too beautiful for this earth..

Our sweet babies that we didn't get to meet:
Grace Maria, Gianna Therese, and Job
Parents' Names: Alex and Tamara
Grace- August 2007 at 5 weeks, and her twin Gianna on Sept 16, 2007. Job joined his big sisters in January 2008 at 4 weeks.
Sweet babies, I am grateful for the time that I held you within me. I love you forever.


Ethan Charles Donaldson
Angela and Guy
Birth Date Born Sleeping 2/13/08
Entered Heaven:
Ethan you forever touched our lives


Seth Douglas Bonnett
Parents: Kathryn & Leland Bonnett
Siblings: Sean, Cary & Kayleigh
Born: March 27, 2008
Entered Heaven: October 12, 2008
Seth, we were so blessed to have known you and so honored to be your parents. Your heart is healed & whole, and ours are forever missing a piece because of you. Until we see you again, sweet boy!

Levi Aaron Henderson
Parent's names: Tommy & Rebekah
Birth date: 1/14/2008
Romans 5:3-5
3Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Ryan Michael Maham
Parents: Dallas and Cathi
Birth date: December 25, 2001
Entered heaven: December 25, 2001
On the day of Christ's birth, our son was born. Only to grace us here on earth for 2 hours. Love you sweet baby Ryan.

Lael Aireen Jeanette
Parent's Name: David and Kristin
Birth Date: October 24, 2008
Entered Heaven: June 21, 2009
"The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away. Blessed be the name of the Lord." Job 1:21

Jordan (gender unknown) and Natalie Hope
Parents Name: Brandon and Chasity Hutchinson
Birth Date: EDD 7/30/09 & 12/11/09
Entered Heaven:I had surgery for both (missed m/c) 1/7/09 & 5/11/09
I just find comfort in my Savior and I truly believe in my heart that God will bless us with a baby to raise one day.

Samantha Mercy BrockParents Name: Steve and Celeste Brock
Birth Date: December 17, 2008 8:05 pm
Entered Heaven: December 17, 2008 10:20pm
I can't wait to sing to you again, my beautiful little bird.
He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock,
That shadows a dry, thirsty land;
He hideth my life in the depths of His love,
And covers me there with His hand,
And covers me there with His hand.
Exodus 33:22

Gracie Eileen
Born to: Jennifer and George Allen on 3/1/2004
Entered Heaven 3/2/2004.
Thank you for the miracle of getting to meet you.

Chloe Joy Gerken
January 9, 2009
You filled our hearts with such great joy as we awaited your arrival. But when the Lord called you home so much earlier than we cver imagined, we experienced a valley deeper and darker than we had ever known. But our Most Merciful Heavenly Father helps us see the joy in trials, as well as tiny glimpses of His Sovereign Design. Though we see through the glass darkly now, we are confident in Him as we wait to see you again -- forever -- and experience the unspeakable joy that you revel in now. We love you, Chloe Joy!
Until Then,
Mommy & Daddy (Jeff and Stephanie Gerken), Kyle, Matthew, Hannah, Caleb, Joshua and Abigail Grace

Baby Gerken
January 2007
We knew you so briefly, sweet baby, but joyfully anticipate that Great Day when we will worship and enjoy Him together -- and forever.
With immeasurable love,
Mommy & Daddy (Jeff and Stephanie Gerken), Kyle, Matthew, Hannah, Caleb, Joshua and Abigail Grace

Ella Faith Gerken
Jeff and Stephanie Gerken
March 31, 2010 -- from our arms into the arms of Jesus nine minutes later

"Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." James 1:2-4

Kali and Kayla
Parents Name: Sara
Birth Date: 1/23/08
Entered Heaven: 1/23/08
I only got to hold you both for a little while but those moments will live on forever in my heart. I can't wait til the day that I get to hold you both again. Mommy loves you both so very much.



Candra Elizabeth
Birth Date: 05/03/1996
Entered Heaven: 05/03/1996

Jonathan Isaiah
Birth Date: 06/10/2002
Entered Heaven: 06/13/2002
Parents Names: Mark and Camille Jenkins
Siblings: Joshua and Andrea
"With breaking hearts and open hands, We send you with a name,
It hurts so much to let you go,
But we’re so glad you came."
this is from "Visitor from Heaven" by Twila Paris

"Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid.
The LORD, the LORD, is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation."
Isaiah 12:2

Ellie Marie
Parents Name: Eric & Renea Lynch
Entered Heaven: September 24, 2002

Kaylie Marie Barger
Parents: Tosha Greiner and Jesse Barger
Birth Date: 10/16/09
Entered Heaven: 10/16/09
Born into Gods Hands!

Samantha Mercy Brock
Parents Name: Steve and Celeste Brock
Birth Date: December 17, 2008 8:05 pm
Entered Heaven: December 17, 2008 10:20pm

I can't wait to sing to you again, my beautiful little bird.

He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock,
That shadows a dry, thirsty land;
He hideth my life in the depths of His love,
And covers me there with His hand,
And covers me there with His hand.
Exodus 33:22

Gracie Eileen
-born to Jennifer and George Allen on 3/1/2004, entered Heaven 3/2/2004.
Thank you for the miracle of getting to meet you.

Miscarriage
Parents Name: Charlie and Ivy Welch
Entered Heaven: July 2006

Stephen
1991 stillborn at 6 months

baby kelly
early miscarriage 1999

Abigail Florentina Ilecki
Born Into Heaven
July 24, 2008

Our little ones
Parents Name: Karin and Paul
April 20, 2009, 17 weeks
December 4, 2009, 14 weeks

Cadynce Alice
Chris & Allison
Birth Date: 10/10/2009
Entered Heaven: 10/10/2009

Cady, We love you and miss you every day.
Mama & Daddy

Liana Brielle Stoddard
Maggie and Nate Stoddard
Stillborn on 9-1-09 at 40 weeks

Liana- We love and miss you so much.

Elijah Griffin Hill
Jamie and Jennifer Hill
February 21, 2010
Same heavenly birthday

Kristen Elaine Eckels
daughter of Will & Kim Eckels
May 7, 2009
August 17, 2009
"Lift your eyes and look to the heavens..." Isaiah 40:26

Olivia Ryan Sidwell
Parents: Greg and Cynthia Sidwell
Born: 5/12/2010
Entered Heaven: Same day, we had 58 wonderful minutes with her

John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

Michael Clifford "peanut"
Son of Daniel and Nancy
July 26, 2010
July 29, 2010
Mommy and Daddy Love and Miss you very much!!

Shelomith
son of the Moose family
Miscarried 10/4/2009 at 16 weeks gestation
I have not found any specific comforting Bible verses yet . . . maybe this year?

Willow Ann
Parents: Steven and Stacey
Birth date: 9.24.10
Entered heaven after only a few minutes.


John Matthew Ennis
First-born son of John and Lori
Birthday: November 28, 2009
Went to Heaven: November 29, 2009

"For this child I prayed, and the Lord gave me what I asked of Him." 1 Samuel 1:27

xoxo

Stratton Kye Albus
Parents Name: Cody & Whitney Albus
Birth Date: 03-25-2010
Entered Heaven: 04-03-2010

Ethan Michael Landreman
Parents: Michael & Rachel
Born 8/6/10
Taken 8/6/10, 7 minutes old

Ella GwenParents Name: Will and Mesa
Birth Date: March 18, 2007
Entered Heaven:
March 18, 2007

Fresh from God, to God returned. ♥

Avery Jaylyn Hilton
Parent: Ariel Hilton
Birth Date: 2/19/10
Heavenly Birthday: 2/19/10
One hour five minutes with our Angel.

Adelle Marie Young
Mary and Jason
Born Oct. 12th, 2009
Died Oct. 15th, 2009

We love you sweet girl, and celebrate the short and powerful life you had here, and the eternal one you are living now! Mommy and Daddy

Easton Stevon Yarbrough
Parents Name:Ashley & Brandon Yarbrough
Birth Date: Aug. 17,2009
Stillborn, was too precious for this place called Earth!
*If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever!*

April
Dan & Michelle
born asleep @ 17 weeks on
April 15, 2010

John 16:20
I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy.

Jordan Lee Bodey
Scott, and Kristi Bodey
April 17, 2010

Kaelin Amal
Parents Name Craig & Allison
Birth Date n/a
Entered Heaven: 3/17/2008

Avery Angel
Jennice & Edwin
September 1, 2010 @ 25 weeks
You are in the arms of the creator where there will be no pain, or suffering.

Ella Grace Dickey
Parents: Brittany and Aaron Dickey
Stillborn 03/04/10

Brynn LaRue Kuhlman
Parents: Devon and Jenna Kuhlman
November 18, 2009, Stillborn at 33 weeks
We love you Brynn and miss you so much.

Cicely Grace Dortenzo
Katy and Josh
March 13, 2003--stillborn

Jer. 29:11

2/99 unnamed
9/8/00 (due 4/22/01) unnamed
4/01 unnamed
12/26/01 (due 6/8/02) Jennyfur Angel Hardesty
2/19/02 twin b (my living son's twin)
4/03 unnamed
2/05 unnamed
11/06 unnamed
8/07 unnamed
4/9/08 unnamed
1/15/09 unnamed
8/17/09 Glory Michelle
9/12/10 Baby Bean

and my godbabies
Joseph Luther Dalton 12/23/08
Twins April & david (may 07)
Hope Marie (12/18/08)
Faith "sweetpea" 10/19/09
Kaleigh & Koter twin angels 6/2010

Jennifer Berry mommy

Grant Thomas
Parents are Jody & Kris Abernathy
Silently Born at 28 weeks, August 14, 2008.

To our miracle from Heaven- There will come a day... Love you and miss you, little one!

I Samuel 1:27, 28

Baby Dylan
Parents: Jeremy & Dawn Teabout
Born sleeping 9/23/10
Rest peacefully, my son.

Anna Belle
Parents Tyler and Shanna
Born and passed Dec. 15, 2009

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you. Before you were born I set you apart." Jeremiah 1:5

We are so grateful to have been blessed with your short life, and grateful that you can carry on now with your Heavenly chores. Your big spirit is more important and mighty than I can even begin to imagine! Till me we again, Princess! Love forever!

Children's Names: Jaxon Thomas, Colin Alexander and Courtney Grace
Parents Name: Rachel and Kenny
Birth Date: March 2, 2007
Entered Heaven: Jaxon May 29, 2007
Colin March 8, 2007
Courtney March 8, 2007

Morgan Alyssa and Baby Blumpy
Parents Names: April & Kyle
Birth Dates: September 8th, 2008 and October 8th, 2009
Entered Heaven: September 8th, 2008, full term, and October 8th, 2009, 10w3d

Caiden Wilson
Parents Name-Ashley & Paul
Entered Heaven-Dec 22 2009
Mommy and Daddy miss you so much baby boy...Sending You Lots Of Love Every Day

Micah Zachary
Albert and Rebecca Clark
bornstill on April 12, 2008
We look forward to holding and nuturing you at the resurrection sweet beautiful son.

Bryston Gabriel & Colton Joseph
Trena & Shawn Cortez
Born August 15, 2010 and went to God shortly after birth.

"so with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy." John 16:22

Matthias Paul Mailly
Parents Name: Richard & Melissa Mailly
Birth Date: 8.9.05
Entered Heaven: 8.10.05

"He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart"
Is. 40:11


Jeremiah Andres
Parents Name- Raquel and Jose
Birth Date- July 13, 2010
Entered Heaven:July 13, 2010
"I will turn your sadness to gladness. I will bring you comfort and joy." Jeremiah 31:13

Rebekah Mackenzie Grace Cartwright
Barbara Woodard
May 21,2009
Entered Heaven to be with God as an angel almost 7 hrs later

My baby blessed me in so many ways I am glad God had chosen me to be her momma! He takes wonderful things from us to keep it Wonderful in Heaven so we will want to go home! I will see my baby girl again when I go home!! Fly high my love!!!

Dan & Tina Jensen
Isaac February 26,2008 16 Weeks
Hannah Joy September 16,2008 19 Weeks

So many scriptures, Jeremiah 29:11 is what God spoke to us after losing Isaac. Then when Hannah passed our world turned upside down. That's when we clung to Psalm 46:10. Now we hold onto the promise of Revelation 21:4

http://flyawayhome08.blogspot.com/

Hannah Jean
Wade & Dina
March 20, 2006
march 20, 2006

Grace Elizabeth
Jamie and Jared Stanko
Feb. 11, 2007 (full term)
with us for just under 2 hours,
forever with the Lord.

nothing clever/heartfelt to write, just an aching heart...

Holden Adym Jonathan Knitz
Parents: Jon and Heidi Knitz
Birth Date: 07/27/10
Entered Heaven: 08/28/10
Holden you are my shooting star!

Joshua Atlas Alberts
Parents Name: Terry and Kimberly Alberts
Birth Date: September 14th 2009
Entered Heaven: September 22nd 2009

Payton Rose Shoemaker
June 6, 2003 to July 9, 2003
Daughter to Jim and Deanna

Also Remembering...
Isaac Timothy Delisle
Audrey Caroline Smith
Isaac and Asher
Christian
Victoria


Remembering all our precious children whose footprints are forever ingrained on our hearts. We still dreams our dreams of you...until we meet again. (Dreams of You ~ C. 2009~ Kelly Gerken)If you would like your baby's name added to this list, please comment in the post below, or email us at: sufficientgraceministries@gmail.com.

Praying for each of you and remembering with you today...