Barely Hanging On

My computer is barely hanging on. It will probably die before I finish this post! Even plugged in, it will not hold a charge. I have to put it on it's side and hold it down to keep it on...which leaves me leaning over, hanging upside down and typing sideways! Oh yeah...it isn't pretty folks. Or comfortable. As I am typing the critical battery window popped up and the cd-rom thingy popped open, simultaneously. I'm thinking that by the time I replace both things, I might as well just get another computer. By the way, if you are a new subscriber, I promise my posts are usually a little more substance-filled than this one.

Which brings me to the next thing, which is really kind of pathetic. Lately, I've felt a little like my computer...barely hanging on. And, for no good reason...which is even more annoying. No terrible, life-altering events are happening. Just the day-to-day grind...the busyness of life, often my nemesis. Sometimes I don't think I was made for this time, but I know I have lamented about that before. And, I really don't want to whine. There is so much to be grateful for.

It's just that I am not a woman who can do it all...and do it well. My housework is suffering. My creative juices are running dry. I get tired and cranky when stretched beyond my limits. I get disorganized and frazzled...quite honestly, I don't know what is possessing me to waste time writing this sad little post, especially when I can't even visit my blog friends lately, let alone string together some words of value. Hold on...the red light is blinking. I have to stop and lean more heavily on the computer. You know...so that it realizes that it is indeed plugged in.

Hmmmmm....

Perhaps that is the problem. The life is draining out of my computer, because it cannot properly connect to it's power source. It's so weak, it doesn't even recognize the source of power connected to it...so drained, it can barely hang on. I am feeling drained....could it be because I am not properly connected to my Power Source? Could it be that I need to refuel...taking time to sit at the feet of Jesus...meditating on His word...spending time in prayer (not the rushed on the go kind that has been frequently occurring.). When it feels like I don't have any time to squeeze that in....when the demands pile up....I need to remember that I can't afford NOT to take the time. When the life is draining...and my energy is low...I need to press in and lean more on my power source...not less. I can't do it on my own. But, with God...all things are possible. His strength is made perfect in my weakness. And, as always...His grace is sufficient to meet my needs for this day...this hour...this moment. He is faithful. And,(unlike this computer...ahem) His power supply will never fail me.